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BIO--- I have discovered Silkpainting in the mid Eighties being 21 Years of age and with great joy. It was big Fashion than and Silkpainters seemed to be everywhere. My first painting on Silks was a long bright yellow Pongee Silk scarf with three Parrots and Orchids - much influenced by the Art of Wallasse Ting, Chinese-American visual artist and poet.
I was working in a Hotel as Receptionist - My completed "Career" from four years of Training as Stately Registered Dietician was left aside, since I was to young, inexperienced and NAIVE to make me feel comfortable with my work. I suffered of insecurity against harsh gastronomic environments. Consequently after some "failures" in my young Profession, I changed to being a Receptionist. Within the first week of wearing my happy Silkscarf at work, my Design was sold to a Hotel client.
WOW! It felt a million Dollars then.
But I was young and easily distracted indeed... It did not take long for me to discover other creative roads as well - I was performing in Theatre, writing shyly first Poetry, took workshops in Sculpturing and Moderating ... Slowly I forgot about my now greatest Love, painting onto Silk.
Boyfriends as well as my "Professional Life" (Really: Did I ever have one? I just seemed to have stumbled along into all those adventures.)
Instead of pursuing my Art I explored many Avenues of Customer Service / Admin / Sales and Marketing, including five Years in Self-employment, always learning yet never being fulfilled with my work. Simply to follow my heart and true creative desires was something I was not yet ready for, so it seems.
However, I have travelled (a bit) and seen a lot of Art in Europe. Travelling to more distant locations in U.S.A, Mexico and latest to Greece were added destinations that came only late onto my Agenda. Still my life has never been plain Sailing...
Being German, I lived 10 Years in England. York / London and Norwich my main "homes". They were demanding and challenging Years. My than Partner, much older than me, became disillusioned about his own life. It took his Heart-attacks and long spells of deep Depression, followed by my own Cancer for me to realize that I could not help him - or live his life.
I remember a "Milestone - Event": Deepest English Winter 99/2000 - I was in pursuit of my Breast Cancer treatment, adding as many alternative Healing Sources as I could - Almost finished with my ten courses of Chemo ("One to go") - Radiotherapy, the Operation soon to come... Yet I was still full time working (being afraid to loose my income since I was the main earner and falling into a "hole") but had the X-mas break and some extra days... I was thinking of new Avenues for me. (Four months later I opened a Shop in Norwich which sold Designs - Tops and Undies for affected Ladies like me). I was hoping to create a Fashion Label, perhaps in shape of a Co-operative Venture since nothing that I have found or researched for my future in supporting or wearing a prosthesis... was to my liking.
So I remembered Silk Painting and started searching... I was happy to find a beloved leading German Silk Artist - Shahida, which to my great joy now is a Facebook friend of mine. But I have also found another Artist - which impressed me so massively to the Point that I had an outburst of tears seeing his Art.
I cried because I realised that I had neglected my greatest Passion and at first instance, over this SHOCK reacted negatively:
I closed down the Computer and promised myself, not to enter Silk painting again since I thought, I can never become that good. Plus, I knew without means, being limited,... I just thought it impossible.
I promised myself to follow deeper upon my business ventures. Becoming "sucesfull" so that (With a little touch of hope?) perhaps one day, I could after all afford to travel that route that is called Silkpainting. I pushed it into the deepest corner I could find.
It was the wrong strategy: Little did I realize that without the connection to my inner creative mind - which is my happiness - I could never become fully sucesfull!
It is only NOW that I am linked once again with my true destiny and my real desires (combining my writing skills and my Painting on Silk, which I love and missed so deeply) that am I in touch with myself and can radiate it to the outside.
Having spend almost eighteen years alongside two "wrong" Partners - Good Men, nothing wrong as Human beings, yet they were mismatching my energies and my interests which has led me to my own created Blues.
I experienced serious Illness - both of them, my own and of my second Partner particularly. He suffered various Heart attacks plus brain bleeding.
I cared for him almost two Years in tough condition until he died... Letting me free to finally exploring my own life.
Rockita... The name he called me now remains in my Art.
This is four Years ago and marked new chapters. I finally learned about my self-love and with a zest and deep yearning inside of me, I turned my road of sad feelings into one of joy.
That took mental exercise, many long walks, reading ... I took almost completely one Year "off" finally spending time and devotion on myself.
This is when I started again with my painting on Silk.
That has led to a painting - my first one "returning back" which became another milestone. Full of joy and good energys, I decided to "devote" this painting to Charity.
It was sold on a X-mas Event 2011 for the Childrens Hospital Cancer-Unit of the University in Frankfurt and raised 2500 EUR, which was spend for the Leukaemia Unit, we had a day with Clowns, Animals and Cinema for the Kids. I still feel touched when thinking about it.
This is my "Koi-Painting" - A lovely design yet so simple in technique... It surely did a wonderful job.
The Koi's ... I am so happy to say ... of course were greatly stimulated by the wonderful Silk Painting Artist Daniel Jean-Baptiste. Precisely the one I had found over the Internet that Winter...
It was much later that I have decided to engage myself with Facebook. I put a Photo of this Design as my backdrop and finally, being mentally open again, have voted for one of his Designs that he has put on Facebook. Another Year later -I hope to say - I have a wonderful friendship on my hands with this hugely talented, caring Artist that has spend his whole life channelling his Art in a beautiful manner. I am saying this not with envy but love, respect, adoration and gratefulness for his creative company. Nothing of this was planned.
He will always continue to remind me NEVER AGAIN to give up again on my Road of Silk ... "The Silky Way". As I call it - My Silky Way and my Road to Happiness. Unfortunately as of yet I can not say that I have arrived as being an Artist - Although I feel the pull strongly yet I am still struggling on many levels. Cash flow is a magic word... Even with daily work, which takes so much energy of mine... Yet I am in full awareness of my development, I am following whole heartedly my chosen path of becoming one and I know, I will be there, sooner or later without doubt and in not too far distance.
Still, even though I feel that I have "lost" a lot of time, consequently, I am lesser skilled in my Painting than others . My writing has greatly benefit from those years of suffering, almost transformed negative Energy into positive ones. Even dealing with loss and death. In my painting I am catching up fast.... Always with a great smile... The time was not lost at all. Perhaps it was needed for me to go through all those stages to become the woman that I am now.
I have gained many valuable skills which will help me to survive with confidence and gain or access Markets of which many Artists have no understanding or no experience at all - Even to the point of being frightened how to present themselves or their work.
Most of all, I have a great need for balance. Balance in my private and emotional life, I have to protect my stability, my health and give myself enough space and time for this creative development of mine. It is a privilege to have a creative talent and is my pride and joy to follow upon that call. A privilege that needs a home and feeding if you want it to grow.
I hope, you can enjoy some of my Designs, which will be an ongoing process.
My Designs I believe have a strong tendency to the "Naive". Somehow I am glad to see it since it represents some happy and innocent part of my inner self. Just as well that there is a tendency towards the Abstract (which does not amaze me at all) and perhaps, a little of Expressionism too. I am excited about my developments in future. Each painting is a surprise.
Come and see me!
With Love.... Stefanie as Rockita.
I was working in a Hotel as Receptionist - My completed "Career" from four years of Training as Stately Registered Dietician was left aside, since I was to young, inexperienced and NAIVE to make me feel comfortable with my work. I suffered of insecurity against harsh gastronomic environments. Consequently after some "failures" in my young Profession, I changed to being a Receptionist. Within the first week of wearing my happy Silkscarf at work, my Design was sold to a Hotel client.
WOW! It felt a million Dollars then.
But I was young and easily distracted indeed... It did not take long for me to discover other creative roads as well - I was performing in Theatre, writing shyly first Poetry, took workshops in Sculpturing and Moderating ... Slowly I forgot about my now greatest Love, painting onto Silk.
Boyfriends as well as my "Professional Life" (Really: Did I ever have one? I just seemed to have stumbled along into all those adventures.)
Instead of pursuing my Art I explored many Avenues of Customer Service / Admin / Sales and Marketing, including five Years in Self-employment, always learning yet never being fulfilled with my work. Simply to follow my heart and true creative desires was something I was not yet ready for, so it seems.
However, I have travelled (a bit) and seen a lot of Art in Europe. Travelling to more distant locations in U.S.A, Mexico and latest to Greece were added destinations that came only late onto my Agenda. Still my life has never been plain Sailing...
Being German, I lived 10 Years in England. York / London and Norwich my main "homes". They were demanding and challenging Years. My than Partner, much older than me, became disillusioned about his own life. It took his Heart-attacks and long spells of deep Depression, followed by my own Cancer for me to realize that I could not help him - or live his life.
I remember a "Milestone - Event": Deepest English Winter 99/2000 - I was in pursuit of my Breast Cancer treatment, adding as many alternative Healing Sources as I could - Almost finished with my ten courses of Chemo ("One to go") - Radiotherapy, the Operation soon to come... Yet I was still full time working (being afraid to loose my income since I was the main earner and falling into a "hole") but had the X-mas break and some extra days... I was thinking of new Avenues for me. (Four months later I opened a Shop in Norwich which sold Designs - Tops and Undies for affected Ladies like me). I was hoping to create a Fashion Label, perhaps in shape of a Co-operative Venture since nothing that I have found or researched for my future in supporting or wearing a prosthesis... was to my liking.
So I remembered Silk Painting and started searching... I was happy to find a beloved leading German Silk Artist - Shahida, which to my great joy now is a Facebook friend of mine. But I have also found another Artist - which impressed me so massively to the Point that I had an outburst of tears seeing his Art.
I cried because I realised that I had neglected my greatest Passion and at first instance, over this SHOCK reacted negatively:
I closed down the Computer and promised myself, not to enter Silk painting again since I thought, I can never become that good. Plus, I knew without means, being limited,... I just thought it impossible.
I promised myself to follow deeper upon my business ventures. Becoming "sucesfull" so that (With a little touch of hope?) perhaps one day, I could after all afford to travel that route that is called Silkpainting. I pushed it into the deepest corner I could find.
It was the wrong strategy: Little did I realize that without the connection to my inner creative mind - which is my happiness - I could never become fully sucesfull!
It is only NOW that I am linked once again with my true destiny and my real desires (combining my writing skills and my Painting on Silk, which I love and missed so deeply) that am I in touch with myself and can radiate it to the outside.
Having spend almost eighteen years alongside two "wrong" Partners - Good Men, nothing wrong as Human beings, yet they were mismatching my energies and my interests which has led me to my own created Blues.
I experienced serious Illness - both of them, my own and of my second Partner particularly. He suffered various Heart attacks plus brain bleeding.
I cared for him almost two Years in tough condition until he died... Letting me free to finally exploring my own life.
Rockita... The name he called me now remains in my Art.
This is four Years ago and marked new chapters. I finally learned about my self-love and with a zest and deep yearning inside of me, I turned my road of sad feelings into one of joy.
That took mental exercise, many long walks, reading ... I took almost completely one Year "off" finally spending time and devotion on myself.
This is when I started again with my painting on Silk.
That has led to a painting - my first one "returning back" which became another milestone. Full of joy and good energys, I decided to "devote" this painting to Charity.
It was sold on a X-mas Event 2011 for the Childrens Hospital Cancer-Unit of the University in Frankfurt and raised 2500 EUR, which was spend for the Leukaemia Unit, we had a day with Clowns, Animals and Cinema for the Kids. I still feel touched when thinking about it.
This is my "Koi-Painting" - A lovely design yet so simple in technique... It surely did a wonderful job.
The Koi's ... I am so happy to say ... of course were greatly stimulated by the wonderful Silk Painting Artist Daniel Jean-Baptiste. Precisely the one I had found over the Internet that Winter...
It was much later that I have decided to engage myself with Facebook. I put a Photo of this Design as my backdrop and finally, being mentally open again, have voted for one of his Designs that he has put on Facebook. Another Year later -I hope to say - I have a wonderful friendship on my hands with this hugely talented, caring Artist that has spend his whole life channelling his Art in a beautiful manner. I am saying this not with envy but love, respect, adoration and gratefulness for his creative company. Nothing of this was planned.
He will always continue to remind me NEVER AGAIN to give up again on my Road of Silk ... "The Silky Way". As I call it - My Silky Way and my Road to Happiness. Unfortunately as of yet I can not say that I have arrived as being an Artist - Although I feel the pull strongly yet I am still struggling on many levels. Cash flow is a magic word... Even with daily work, which takes so much energy of mine... Yet I am in full awareness of my development, I am following whole heartedly my chosen path of becoming one and I know, I will be there, sooner or later without doubt and in not too far distance.
Still, even though I feel that I have "lost" a lot of time, consequently, I am lesser skilled in my Painting than others . My writing has greatly benefit from those years of suffering, almost transformed negative Energy into positive ones. Even dealing with loss and death. In my painting I am catching up fast.... Always with a great smile... The time was not lost at all. Perhaps it was needed for me to go through all those stages to become the woman that I am now.
I have gained many valuable skills which will help me to survive with confidence and gain or access Markets of which many Artists have no understanding or no experience at all - Even to the point of being frightened how to present themselves or their work.
Most of all, I have a great need for balance. Balance in my private and emotional life, I have to protect my stability, my health and give myself enough space and time for this creative development of mine. It is a privilege to have a creative talent and is my pride and joy to follow upon that call. A privilege that needs a home and feeding if you want it to grow.
I hope, you can enjoy some of my Designs, which will be an ongoing process.
My Designs I believe have a strong tendency to the "Naive". Somehow I am glad to see it since it represents some happy and innocent part of my inner self. Just as well that there is a tendency towards the Abstract (which does not amaze me at all) and perhaps, a little of Expressionism too. I am excited about my developments in future. Each painting is a surprise.
Come and see me!
With Love.... Stefanie as Rockita.